Friday, December 16, 2011

A Thousand Years

I have died everyday,
Waiting  for you,
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you ,
for a Thousand years,
I'll love you for a Thousand more,

And all along I believed,
I would find you,
Time has brought,
Your heart to me,
I have loved you,
for aThousand years,
I'll love you for a Thousand more,

One step closer,
One step closer...

christina perri- A thousand years 

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Persistent Ex

Leon had a partner before this, seemingly a rich sugardaddy. One day, Leon received a text from his ex

Ex: Hey, im getting you a christmas gift this year!

Leon: Dont have to, why bother?

Ex: Come on, well.... actually i plan to get you a Levi's special ed jeans. What's your waist size again..? and the cutting how?

Leon: No, please dont buy me any gifts anymore...

Ex: You prefer black? I think black suits you

*troll face*
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Busy,busy Life

It's been awhile since i blog due to my hectic and busy varsity lifestyle. Tried finding ample time to blog but with the ongoing exams, assignments and quizzes, i had to lie low on blogging. However, since it's almost end of the year, ill be having my holidays soon and thus, ill be resuming my blog and posting on a weekly basis. So far no eye candies here, except for studious and nerd individuals...*troll face forever lonely*

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Friday, October 28, 2011

How Much You Love Me

Feeling all moody and disappointed, Leon didnt enjoy his holidays. Throughout the holidays, Leon was thinking about how badly he did in his test. He didnt feel like seeing anybody at that moment, including Cliff, and all he could do was to harp continuously on his "blunder".

One fine day, he got a text from Cliff .

Cliff: Want to hang out this weekend?

Leon: Sure, why not.... how about this friday?

Cliff: Actually i was thinking of going to the "hottest hunk" event this friday evening...

Leon: Why dont you go and "enjoy" your event and wash your eyes there..(sarcastically)

Cliff: It's alright, i dont mind skipping that that i can see you.

Leon: NO, why dont you go, seriously..You'll miss 30 muscular hunks just to see a kid......would you?

Cliff: Let's see if that kid can compensate for 30 hunks then.. haha

Leon: Okay then..

Cliff: See you =)

That night, Cliff accompanied Leon for dinner and they walked around the shopping mall. Leon eventually felt much better when he was with Cliff...inexplainable but it seems like the presence of Cliff being with him just expel all negative energy from his body.

Leon: Im sorry for being selfish...for allowing you to miss that event..

Cliff: It's okay =)

Cliff then piggyback Leon down the escalator and they head to the carpark. Then, while Cliff was driving, he took out several gifts he got for Leon when he was in Hong Kong. Those gifts were expensive and Leon felt very bad as Cliff's financial status wasnt stable momentarily. Though he had some financial issues, he wasnt stingy to get Leon gifts.

Leon: Thanks shouldnt have gotten all's very expensive...

Cliff just smiled back at Leon. Soon, Leon realised how unfair he was in this relationship and he really didnt want this relationship to end up like a father-son thing.

Leon: Hm.. do you feel this relationship is somehow like a father-son thing?

Cliff: times...but it's okay. For now, i just want you to listen and care for me more....

Leon: Sorry for being defiant at times, and ill try my best to listen to you in assure, i will never leave you..

Leon soon understood how much Cliff's love was for him and how grateful he was to have Cliff in his life

Thursday, October 6, 2011


It has been a month living here,
No words can describe,
How lonely and void I feel right now,
No one notices it,
As it's just a mere kuchi-rat thing,
Having to sit alone,
In class, or during meal time,
Or even in the room , being all by myself,
Is dreadful and lonely.
This year marks another year where I will age by a unit,
Supposingly to be a delightful thing,
But not anymore to me,
For at least i know, the bed and books will accompany me,
Celebrating my sad and lonely birthday this year.
Hence I will be saddened, for my loved ones,
Are not there to accompany me.
A lesson learnt I should say,
That one must need to know- "   ",
Simply telling that I cannot be dependent (emotionally) to others.

Catch Your Star

Catch the star that holds
your destiny-
the one that forever
twinkles in your heart.
Take advantage of precious
while they still sparkle before you...

(Always follow your dream)

Tuesday, September 20, 2011


Tonsillitis is an inflammation of the tonsils most commonly caused by viral or bacterial infection. Yes, I have that annoying viral infection. It has been 6 days since the early symptom of infection, and my condition worsened day by day. That led me into consulting a doctor and he prescribed  6 medicines.

I called X to relate my condition.

X: How's your throat?

Me: Bad..getting worse..

X: I told you to gargle with salt water a million times but you so stubborn..

Me: They dont sell salt here

X: You must stop your bad habit of biting nails too..

Me: I dont bite my nails anymore..

X: Then how come your nails still short ??

Me: I didnt bite la..just that my nails wont grow anymore..

X: Excuses, how about gargling with listerine?

Me: Expensive la..can i just use toothpaste and gargle?

X: Toothpaste isnt mouthwash!!!!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Gorgeous Lad

Leon spotted a fine looking lad, dressed up from tip to toe, looking simply dashing. That student has a tanned skin tone, puppy eyes, kissable pink lips,prominent nose and a fit physique. He's simply perfect and best of all, he's a civil engineering student whereby chemical and civil engineering students share the same lab. =D

Till now, Leon still hasnt get the chance to be acquainted with that gorgeous lad as he's busy.
Leon cant wait to see that guy to dress into engineering coat, wearing safety helmet and goggles !

Monday, September 12, 2011

New Environment

The 1st impression I had for this particular university was-

1.) No eye candies, thus probably gonna be boring and also no motivation
2.) "Jinjang and ulu" place as there were no entertainment and leisure malls

Things got worst upon the admission into my single-storey hostel. The 1st thing that concerned me was the cleanliness of the bathroom and to my dismay, it's bloody filthy- stains and faeces marks around the toilet bowl, dark stains around the sink area and poor water outlet. A big sigh !

However, I bought a two way bus ticket and Im going home despite having to attend Dr. Mahathir's speech. So much for his speech =D bleh..

(no "nice views" =/  )

Friday, September 2, 2011

Teary Moment

Leon knew that this was it, he can no longer control it...his emotional dams were about to burst when he met Cliff the last time before going off.

Ciff: Dont cry, you're a big boy now..all grown up, BE STRONG!

Leon: *cries on Cliff's shoulders* ( he knew that no one would care for him as much as Cliff )

Leon loves Cliff a lot to the fact that he shedded tears. Leon dont usually cry unless it is worth dripping tears for something significant to him.

Leon: Remember when the times you said i dont really miss you.....I really do..always *continues weeping*

Cliff: I know, i know, i will miss you too..

Then, Cliff reached out behind and handed Leon a book and inside a book he wrote something personal:

"Dearest Leon,

May this book be used to nourish your soul when you're feeling sad and down. May it keep you warm in the coldest of nights, may it keep you company when you're lonely and thinking of the people you miss at home. Most importantly, may it be a source of hope and faith in the new challenges that will come your way. Remember, never give up when the tough gets going, knowing that success is only but a stone's throw away."

Leon: Thanks!

*That night, several promises were made and some include smsing each other every morning once awaked and during night time before sleeping, meeting each other during weekends when Leon returns home and when Cliff visits Leon, and also NEVER TO STOP LOVING ONE ANOTHER*

They kissed each other goodnight passionately and then Leon left Cliff's car to end the day.


"Hey, let's go to Pavilion!", suggested Alvis. All of us nodded our heads and took a bus there. Then, we decided to settle down in a restaurant and share "Sticky!"(a kind of melted sugar being moulded and shaped) among ourselves. Later, 3 of my friends bid me goodbye, leaving me and Alvis alone.

"Tonight, I'll make sure 'didi' (younger bro) is protected",chuckled Alvis.

The following morning, I had to return home and Alvis made this disturbed expression.

"Must visit 'kor'(elder brother) ok?" said Alvis.

"OK!" I replied.

"Promise?" asked Alvis pointing out his pinkie finger.


Saturday, August 20, 2011

My Friend Whose Name is Alvis

I saw a peculiar looking guy; restless as he didnt know which lecture hall to enter. I took notice of his behaviour and thought to myself, today im going to make another friend. And that guy happened to be Alvis, a jovial and kind individual. Every lunch and dinner were spent together with him throughout my 3 months in university. He would gladly accompany me to toilet after classes and fetch a bus together with me. Also, he would teach me lessons that are difficult for me to comprehend.

One fine day, I decided to check my UPU result via internet and to my amazement, I've got an outstanding offer. I was puzzled at first, whether i should accept it but finally, i've decided to take it. One of the factors that encouraged me to take this offer was the support given by Alvis.

Then one night, whilst spending some time with him, suddenly he shedded tears and i was bewildered.
This was more or less the actual situation:

Me: Why ? What's gotten into you?
Alvis: Nah, nothing....
Me: Come on, there must be something that;s bugging you right...??
Alvis: You.....(he said politely and softly)

Me: Huh??? Why??

Alvis: I've been so close with you this past 3 months, it saddens me seeing you to leave...and also...I wont have anyone else to hang out with me and to teman me for lunch or dinner anymore..(he cried profusely)

Me: Come on, cheekup okay... not to worry. See, for the past three months, you have established several good friendships with others..and besides, it's not like our friendship will's forever okay? =D

Alvis: okay...

Onwards then, Alvis never stop comforting me or never did his caring attitude towards me ceased.Instead, he cared for me even more and several promises were made between me and him. Some include excelling in our studies and to meetup some point in our life when both are convenient. A true and genuine friendship was shown between both of us and this will trully be etched in my memory..

(Alvis is a straight guy)

Friday, August 12, 2011


Leon went to Pasar Seni as there were a lot of florist shops there. Prepped in and shrugged his shoulders as Leon didn't know what flower would be ideal to give. Roses will be boring thought Leon as roses are always selected to be a gift. After spending about 20 minutes in the florist shop, Leon finally got a stalk of sunflower. Why did he choose a sunflower????

Leon then travelled to Cliff's office and handed him the nicely wrapped flower. Sunflower symbolizes loyalty as a sunflower will face to one Sun only

Sunday, July 24, 2011

One Glance To Add

A guy walked passed by and quickly scanned me from head to toe; both of us in opposite directions. The next thing, I've received a friend request in facebook from the identical species =@ How on earth did he manage to find me lol. Still puzzled

Friday, July 22, 2011

A Better Offer

I've been offered to pursue chemical engineering in one of the top local universities in Malaysia last week. Considering that the offer is relatively cheap, and also getting the course i've selected, i was overjoyed. However, much sacrifices have to be done if i were to divert to this exclusive option. No doubt that a major part of my social life will be stripped off. Also, i will definitely miss my loved ones . In a dilemma right now =/

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Stressed Out

Never did it come across that engineering course would be darn tough to handle. Been underestimating it, and as a result, my performance in studies is somehow "nyawa-nyawa ikan".

Big-headed and arrogancy sensed, I've been slacking, thinking that this 1st semester would be a piece of cake. It proved me wrong, and im struggling now to catch up with the syllabus. Hope it's not to late =(*facepalms, disappointed*. Meanwhile, ill be inactive temporarily and thus, regular postings have to cease. However, not to worry, ill resume my blog archives after a fornight to come;

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Moving out

Been pampered at home- hot meals are laid on the table, a warm and comfortable bed for me to lay on, clean and ironed clothes for me to wear, etc.

Since im moving out, i no longer can enjoy these privileges. A reflection is made, "how lucky and blessed i am" thought myself.

I guess im all grown up now, to decide and carve my path of life. No worries, i know what are my priorities and certainly, i will be someone in future!

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


Leon is shifting to KL soon, and thus, took the opportunity to fill his medulla oblongata and cerebellum memory with gay videos. Every night, usually past midnight, he would endeavour into streaming and searching for the hottest love sessions videos. This is because, he will be sharing a master room with another homosapein and thus, wouldnt have that much chance to view these videos.

Talking about gaytube, Leon finds it interesting as it has a compilations of gay videos from various sites. Preferably, Leon would stream videos that are played within 1-3 minutes due to certain "reasons". Well, all " good things"  has to come to an end Leon!


With reference to the above topic, how do you guys view "kiasu-ism"?

To me, kiasu-ism can be something positive that should be inculcated in us as it helps an individual to progress in life without slacking. The fear of losing out to others in terms of education, work, performance, etc will eventually develop an individual into a mere perfectionist.

I've been a kiasu kid ever since my secondary school lifestyle, but eventually faded when i entered into my tertiary studies. I still remembered the times in secondary school, how deceiving i was in convincing others that i studied lesser than them for an exam, but in the ending, scoring relatively higher marks. And upon seeing their disappointed face, a smirk and evil-satisfaction smile is smirked. Somehow, "kiasu-ism" helped me to score strings of A's in my exams, and nonetheless, "kiasu-sm" is something that should be viewed positively.

P.S- Kiasu in building my physique too

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

The Gym "Ambience"

Recently, Leon has been an active gym-goer. He took noticed about a bunch of gym-ers and thus, classified them.

There are the muscle mania who tend to look at themselves in the mirror, flexing their over-built muscles, thinking that they're drop dead gorgeous.

Heading to the tracks and drinking "parlour" area, he noticed several flowerpots standing at one side of the corner, gazing at guys and wanting to be approached.

Next, the steam room, Leon noticed that there are several perverts who are longing to attract "the unnecessary" attention by playing with their pubic hair or caressing their nipples.

It's OK being Different

It has been about 3 years of taunting and torment,
Being "different" was something unacceptable and formidable,
It's alright, it's your decision; your rights
That's what I thought.

Endure it!
Justify why being different,
Change others' negative perceptions,
And finally,
My old folks are finally accepting me,
My siblings are finally understanding me,
My friends are finally supporting me,
It's just a matter of time for the acceptance and transition.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I've Lost A Friend

The title says it all and it's not just any ordinary friend. He was a special friend, whom i can share my ups and downs with, or turn to for a crying shoulder. We studied together, did all crazy things together but not anymore...


It's because he got disillusioned by lust factor. He begin to sleep around ever since he begin to use GrindR.
He doesnt give a hoot about my advices, but he rather choose to ignore them.

All I can do for now is to pray to God so that my lost friend will be able to realize and take the "turning point" to the right path.

Thursday, April 28, 2011

A Promise Kept

He promised to bring me to Tony Roma's.

I'm overjoyed not because i get the opportunity to feast on expensive meals but because he fulfilled his promise.

I realised he's a man of his words. It was also special to me as this was my first time at Roma's

Monday, April 25, 2011

Gym Freak

When i was younger, i used to comment and criticize frequent gym go-ers

But now....??

Not going to gym for 2 days makes me feel uneasy. What a transition.

Yes, call me a gym freak if you like. Im okay with it because by going to gym, my physique showed a wee bit progress


before gym

After approx 1 month,



I dont know why i chose to play this game,
A game which will definitely jeopardize myself,
My guilt gut is not giving any signal,
It seems like i'm hooked to this game,
I just dont know why

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Angry Bird

As you all know, "Angry Bird" is an addictive game and I would spend hours playing with it and even to the extent of repeating the game all over again. Usually i would play "angry bird" during my working hours without being reprimanded by my superior.

There are several versions of  angry bird, namely "angry bird seasonal" and "angry bird rio" and what attract me the most about this game is that each species of birds tossed have multiple functions.

Today itself, i got stucked at a particular stage and it really bothered me a lot as i spent almost an hour to pass ONE stage. Goodness gracious, I wonder when did i ever become so lifeless.

Monday, April 11, 2011

"Dong" and "Ding"

Leon and Cliff decided to play a game, which is to identify as many gay people as possible and to make things more interesting, they would label their appearance by saying out "ding" or "dong"

"Ding" meant that the gay person looks physically attractive whereas "dong" meant the otherwise of the latter.

So whenever both of them are out together at places such as shopping complexes and gym, they would be busy uttering "ding ding", "ding dong", "dong dong"...

Crucial Decision To Be Made

Recently, I've been offered to study chemical engineering at several institutions. This is where the problem revolve. First of all, if i were to choose to study at USM, i will be far away from my loved ones ( family members ). I couldnt bear leaving them. To make things worst, there's a significant individual that appeared into my life recently, and leaving that person will definitely leave me in despair.

USM is ranked at 1st position in Malaysia and studying there would of course ensure me that there will be a competitive environment equipped with qualified and excellent lecturers. However, ive decided to pursue chemical engineering at UTAR which is ranked at position 22 .

I hope im making the right choice.

Friday, April 8, 2011

Toying with Emotions

A guy about late 30's chatted up with me. He has seen me before in person and treated me whenever we dine in a restaurant.

Recently, he told me that he will give me anything in life that i desire (cars, house, etc) but with one condition, which is to love him.

At first, i wanted so badly to get an iphone 4 and so, we decided to meet up the following day as he told me that he will definitely get it for me. I was certainly wrong as i wanted to play with his emotions in order to get what i wanted.

At the end, i failed to meet up with him as i know playing with someone's emotion is dangerous..and thus, i forgo it.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Smile Smile Smile..

What i have observed, when a gay guy smiles at you, it means that they find you interesting.

I wonder why they dont have the guts to approach and be properly acquainted rather than just smiling..pfttt

Is smiling good enough to hint me?

Forever In Love

If I could have just one wish, I would wish to wake up everyday to the sound of your breath on my neck, the warmth of your lips on my cheek, the touch of your fingers on my skin, and the feel of your heart beating with mine... Knowing that I could never find that feeling with anyone other than you

Thursday, March 31, 2011


Leon and Cliff decided to settle for Fish Manhattan after work. Leon started fidgeting the iphone and immediately accessed into GrindR once seated.

Leon: Eh, Eh, the guys in sunway arent bad looking after all huh?

Cliff : *rolls eyes*

Leon : Haha, so can i put my facepic to test for my market value?

Cliff : NO!! Dont you ever do that

Leon : Why?? Just testing ma

Cliff : * turns head away and face another direction*

Leon noticed Cliff's reaction and realized it..


Leon : * turns to Cliff*

Cliff : Whenever we go out, you'll play with GrindR for at least 15 minutes. I came out to see you..

Leon : Im sorry..*pat Cliff*

Leon then bought a pint of BR ice-cream for Cliff to soothe him . Leon knew that he was definitely wrong and would pray very hard not to do so the next time.

Love you a gazillion

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Road Less Taken

Leon is certained about his sexual orientation, though his friends and family told him that he's just confused and that it's just a "phase" where most youth go through.

Now, Leon chose to divert into the alternative path, less taken by others. He knew that there will be many opposing obstacles, but no worries, he will know how to handle it as he's not alone ;)

No turning back now..

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Are You Faithful?

 Come to think of it, gays aren't that faithful as compared to normal heterosexual couples. I dont know why, but i reckon that it is something inevitable and in-built or embedded into their personality.

Recently, I met person X via my close friend, D and the conversation between us went somehow like this:

X : So.... when did you guys first had sex?

Me: Er, im still a virgin *laughed* and besides, it's something P&C.

D : *smiled*


X : Come on, a cute guy like you!?? impossible you didnt sleep around.

Me: Seriously, No, and i think it's unsafe to do so.


X : ok, justified enough. anyways, what's your opinion on 3P? * he winked at both of us*

Me : err.... weird, why do you ask such question? Dont you have a partner?


X : Ala, just joking around, i mean takkan you not boring......everytime same " mee goreng"?

Straight away, i knew this guy was dangerous and should be avoided. However, i actually thought of that question and pondered deep.

Why do gays behave as such? Is it their nature or due to the surrounding gay lifestyle factor? I wouldn't deny that i tend to flirt around at certain times but not until the extent of having sexual relationships.

Friday, March 25, 2011

Acceptance Part 2

Mother: I dont want you to be a gay! I shall not accept it..and if you ever become one, you wont have any blessings from me.

Leon ignore and continued tidying his bedroom.

Mother: You know that gays are the root of causing a family to be disorientated? Gays are like wolves disguising as a sheep. They appear to be all caring because they want SEX only.

Leon face turned red.

Mother: You wont be successful in life if you're a gay i tell better change yourself. Dont ask me to pray for you next time.
"Was it a threat imposed?" thought Leon
Question is: can Leon succumb to these torments?

Thursday, March 24, 2011


Recently, I've been streaming pornographic videos and getting extremely obsessed with this "habit"
After work, i would check my mails and FB status for about 1/2hour and then, proceed watching explicit films.
I guess im longing for a great and wonderful sex escapades experience but well, im contented with what i have right now ;)

Finger crossed, and consistent praying to God shall help me

Saturday, March 19, 2011

"Unpleasant" Hard On Sight

Entered gym about 0800 and utilised the track machine for about 10 minutes. While I was on the track machine, a guy probably in his early 30's stood beside me and gazed at me. Then, he used the stepping machine behind me. After burning about 120 calories and  successfully increase my hb/m till 160, i headed to the crunch. The same guy then followed me and did crunches. After finishing my crunches, i used the pectoral machinery. The guy then used the biceps curl which was situated nearby me and whilst during his curls, he glanced at me. He then used the chest push machine which is right beside me and laid down to do his reps.

Curious about his behaviour, i glanced at him and to my horror ( excitement ***winks***), a huge bulge was projecting . He then smiled at me and left after that. LOL

Love Pills

Cliff randomly entered one of the toyshops in midvalley and spotted a glass bottle filled with unusual coloured pills. Leon then read the details on it and decided to purchase it.

The pills aren't edible.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

A Fragment Of Crystal Precious Memories

Day started off early for Leon as he had to get ready by 0915 for his post-valentine's activities. As promised, Cliff picked up Leon and ensured him that this will be a memorable day. Cliff also mentioned that Leon had to agree to "participate" in all the upcoming surprise "activities". They arrived around 1100 and the 1st surprise was revealed upon arrival to Bukit Cahaya- A BIG THRILL skytrack adventure.

Thrilled and excited; as this was his first time, Leon gave a peck on Cliff's cheek. Obstacles after obstacles did Leon managed to hurdle eventhough it was his first time. Proud of himself and being accompanied by one of the most significant person in the world, Leon was extremely overjoyed. Never did it came across Leon's mind that he'll be able to enjoy outdoor activities together with his beloved "beau" due to the restrictions imposed by his parents. Both Cliff and Leon completed the BIG THRILL by 1230 and left Bukit Cahaya.

Leon and Cliff showered using the facilities provided by one of the gyms and headed to Pyramid. But before that, Cliff handed Leon a red package with a fancy golden star on it. Ignoring the nicely wrapped package, Leon ripped if off and discovered the watch that he always wanted. That was the second surprise and Leon was really delighted. Cliff then explained that he didnt mind buying it as he really "sayang" Leon and also that he wanted it to be a momento.

Both of them had lunch in Carl's Jr and Cliff told Leon to be prepared for the 3rd surprise. Cliff's 3rd surprise was a fish spa treatment( Leon already expected it actually). After the awesome spa treatment, they had dinner together with Cliff's gym buddies and then headed home.

Overall, Leon could never forget this memorable experience with his beau as it will be etched in his memory forever. These surprises were all a -first-time-thing- to Leon and therefore, that day really meant a lot to Leon.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Holding my Hands Firmly

 I am aware that you're showering me with continuous support. How?

You followed me to every education fair held, taught me how to use public transport so that i can independently utilise these public amenities.
You ensured me that there'll be a backup plan for my tertiary studies. You opened up my eyes, helping me to discern good values from bad. You stood there all the while when i cant stand on both legs firmly. When i am weak, you picked me up and strengthen me. I love you now and forever.

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Cutie pie

As i was flipping through a magazine, a picture of a guy totally grasped 100% of my attention. He looked so perfect ,hardly any flaws and typically my type of guy.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Shooting Star (reposting)

It was a warm afternoon in February. David and Cliff were hanging out by the mall, taking some time off their hectic college schedule to catch a movie they both have been waiting to see. David was 20 and he was the most perfect guy imaginable. He was the dashing school athlete - tall, lean and toned, intelligent and always sports a smile that would melt the heart of anyone he met. He's the life of any party, a charming guy and an even greater friend.

Cliff was also 20, and they both got to know each other during a club meeting of which they both were members of. David was the president of the club at that time, while the quiet and shy Cliff was just a ordinary member. David was a very responsible president, and he took time to make sure that he knew all the members of the club, irrespective of ranks or backgrounds. Under his guidance, the club carried out many successful activities which benefited the community they both lived in.

They both have known each other for close to 2 years now, and would always be hanging out together when they had some time to kill when not doing any community or charity work at the orphanage where they both volunteered at.

"Whoa! The queue seems long today! Did you managed to book tickets?" asked David.

"Err.... I tried but I couldn't. The seat allocations for ticket reservations were all taken up last night when I tried to book them", Cliff replied, sounding very sorry.

David replied, "Nah... It's alright. I guess we'll wait just like anyone else. Don't sweat it ok?"

The truth is, Cliff is gay. He has been admiring David for a very long time, and was always happy to be spending time with him, at the movies, at the gym, at the orphanage or even at the library, working on their assignments. He wasn't sure if David was also gay, he never gave him any hints or went after him in fear that it might jeopardise their beautiful friendship. Afterall, David was a popular guy and many girls were after him. Cliff felt that he won't measure up to any of those girls, or guys for that matter.

Fortunately, they both managed to get good seats for their movie, 4th row from the back. After getting the tickets, they both went and get some popcorn and drinks.

"Sweet one yeah? Or would you like them mixed?" asked David. "The popcorns and drinks are on me alright?" he added.

"I guess we'll just do sweet this time", replied Cliff with a broad smile. "You're very sweet you know!"

"I am? Hahaha... Well I guess I am!" David laughed as he grabbed the large tube of popcorn and two Cokes and proceeded to the cinema.

It was slightly cold in the cinema, and Cliff lovingly offered David his warm jacket. David was touched by his offer, but he declined.

"Nah... You use it. As long as you're warm, I'm alright." David said. "Now, enjoy your movie!" he added while patting Cliff on his head.

In his heart, Cliff was smiling.


A week later, they both met again at the orphanage. They were giving free tuition to kids. Cliff taught Mathematics while David taught the kids Science. They both were such lovable people, all the kids at the orphanage loved them and would always looked forward to their visit. Cliff and David never forget to bring candy bars for them, and once in a while they would bring the kids out for some fastfood whenever they had the time. Although it would cost them a part of their weekly allowances, but they both felt that the kids deserved them, especially after they did well in their exams.

"Hmmm... Did you realise that next Saturday is Valentine's Day?", David said.

"Oh yeah! Haha! I almost forgot!", Cliff said shyly with a smile; but deep inside he knew that the Valentine he wished for would never be his.

"Do you have any plans on that day?", David asked.

"Nope... I'm single... And thus, no plans", Cliff replied with a heavy heart.

"Hmmm... In that case... Would you like to catch a movie with me?" David asked. "I'm also like you, single but not available."

Cliff was puzzled by his words. "Single but not available?".

"Sure! That would be great! But how come you say that you're single... But at the same time not available?" Cliff asked curiously.

"Well... Let's just say that I like someone and haven't asked the person out on a proper date yet," David said. "Besides, I don't know if the person likes me."

"Oh... Ok. Come on, tell me who is that lucky girl?", poked Cliff.

"Nah... I don't want to mention any names...", David said in a low voice.

"Alright. I understand. So it's a date then, on Valentine's day!" Cliff said enthusiastically.

David just smiled, and gave Cliff a friendly punch on his left shoulder. "This time, book the tickets ok?!" David said. "I'm sure the queue that night would be crazy!"

"No prob", Cliff replied.

In his heart, Cliff can't wait for Valentine's Day to arrive...


It was Febuary 14 and it's Valentine's Day! It was 5pm and Cliff managed to get tickets for the 9pm show of a romantic comedy for the both of them. He didn't want to disappoint David again, so he actually went to the cinema two days earlier and secured good seats.

"Hey... Don't forget our 'date' tonight!", Cliff joked over the telephone.

"Hahaha... Of course not. I'm just about to send my mum to the supermarket for some groceries, so I'll see you at 7 outside Marcy's. Don't be late!", David spoke.

"Don't worry, I'll be the one waiting for you!", Cliff joked again. "See you later! Bye!"

"Bye!" and David hung up.

Cliff arrived early and got a table at the restaurant, while waiting for David to reach. Suddenly, Cliff's handphone rang.

It was David.

"Hey Cliff? I'll be 10 minutes late!" David spoke over the phone.

"Haha... See?! I told you I'll be waiting for you. Well, it's alright. Take your time. I'm already in the restaurant, so just walk in later. Our table is just by the stairs." Cliff replied.

"Alright!" David said and he ended the call.

David walked in 10 minutes later, and apologised for being late.

"Sorry Cliff... For being late. I took a little longer to ... style my hair!" David blushed.

"What? Hahahah... Ok, let's order now. What would you like? And yea, dinner is on me today!" Cliff said.

"Oh really? Hmmm... Alright, then movie and snacks on me later then," David said. "I think I'll order the steak with black pepper sauce."

"Good choice. I'll be having fish and chips" Cliff said.

Dinner that night was good, and they both had a marvelous chat over dinner. They talked about what happened at home and what they were both up to the past week. They laughed and joked, and enjoyed each other's company very much. Cliff felt very happy to be in the company of someone whom he cared for a lot, and even more since it's on Valentine's Day.


After dinner, they both took a cab to the cinema. This time, Cliff noticed that David brought his sweater along.

"Hey... You brought your sweater too eh?!" Cliff said, pointing to the brown sweater David was carrying in his knapsack.

"Yeah... I don't want to feel cold in the cinema anymore! The last time when we watched that movie, I was freezing!" replied David.

"Then how come you didn't take my sweater when I offered it to you?", Cliff asked, puzzled.

"Coz, I don't want to feel warm when you're shivering! It's your sweater afterall, and I won't feel nice", David added. "Anyway, in case I forget to mention it later, I had lots of fun tonight!"

"Me too!", Cliff said excitedly. "Me too!"

The movie was extremely funny, and the both of them were laughing the whole entire time. The movie ended just before 11pm, and they both decided to get some ice-cream before walking to a nearby park.

"Can I have 2 vanilla cones please?", David told the ice-cream vendor.

Cliff was puzzled. "How did you know that I like vanilla?"

"I know a lot about your likes and dislikes, silly!" David said with a little laugh. "You're my best friend, of course I know what you like!"

"Hehe... I guess so. But now I know that you love vanilla too! Haha!" joked Cliff.

"By the way, how's the movie?" David asked, while licking his ice-cream.

"Oh my god! It was so funny! I was laughing my ass off!" replied Cliff, laughing loudly.

"Yeah. It was really funny. I especially liked the part when Matt's parents discovered them kising in the garden. I can't forget the look on Matt's face! It was freaking hillarious!" David said, and both of them started laughing.

Cliff loved to hear David's laugh as it was infectious and at the same time uplifting. A moment of David's laugh would lift him up when he's feeling down and depressed. Deep down inside, he was happy that they were both very good friends, although he really wished that they could be more than just best friends.


They were walking around in the park on a clear February 14th night when they came across a field. David suggested that they lie on the ground while observing the night sky. The sky was clear, and the stars were visible.

David laid down on the green grass, while Cliff sportingly laid just beside him, both looking upwards to the vast beautiful sky.

"See that bright star? There?" David said matter of fact-ly, pointing to that particular star slightly to their left. "Well, that's actually Venus."

"Yeah... I see it! Wow... It's so tiny, but still very bright nevertheless!", Cliff said, trying to make a smart statement.

"Yeah... Although the planet's big, but it's located so far away that we only view it as a dot in the sky. I can't help it, although the distance is so far... But..." David said, sounding a little sad.

"But what?", Cliff asked, sounding a little worried now.

"The longest distance is not between the ground and the sky. Not between heaven and earth and not between life and death. Not even from here to Venus. It's when you're standing in front of someone, and that person doesn't know that you love him or her. It's sad...", David sighed, trying hard to control his tears from streaming down his cheek.

"The girl doesn't love you?", Cliff asked, trying to comfort David.

"Nah, let's not talk about it. Let's just lie down here and observe the sky. The sky's beautiful tonight. It really is...", David replied, trying to gain his composure.

"Alright", Cliff said, while he gave David a pat on his left shoulder. "Don't worry, if she's yours, she will be. Don't think too much about it, ok?"

Suddenly, a bright shooting star streaked across the clear blue sky.

"Hey! Look! It's a shooting star!", Cliff said excitedly, trying to point out the path of the shooting star.

"Wow! It's a shooting star! I've never seen one before!", David claimed. "This is the first one I've ever seen in my entire life!"

"Hahah... Well you know what they say about shooting stars... If you see one, you make a wish upon them... And it will come true!" Cliff said, trying to reassure David that things will be alright.

"Yeah... I've heard that too!" David said, and quietly they both looked at the sky and silently made their wish.

"So what did you wish for?" David jokingly teased Cliff, now in a better mood.

Cliff was in a dilemma. The only thing that Cliff ever wished was for David to be his. He's now torn between telling David the truth, or covering it up with a lie. It could end this friendship if he told him the truth, but since David was baring his soul that night and considering that they both have been very close friends, Cliff decided to tell him. David could accept it, he thought.

"Ac-tual-llllly... I... I... wished for you", Cliff stuttered. "I've admired you for a very long time... and... I really wish that the both of us could be more than just friends".

"I love you David... and I don't wanna lose you", Cliff said. He sat up and turned away from David.

Cliff thought that their friendship would be forever ruined and things would never be the same again. Cliff's emotional dam broke and he could not hold the feelings back. Tears started running down his cheeks.

David sat up and turned towards Cliff. He grabbed Cliff from the back and gave hugged him tightly.

"Cliff... please don't cry... please don't..." David said reassuringly while he wiped the tears flowing down Cliff's face with his shirt. He faced Cliff and planted a kiss on his forehead.

Tears started rolling down David's face.

"I guess we're both very lucky tonight", whispered David. "Both of our wishes came true..."

How They Met Each Other

Jude fondly remembered how he met Crawford. Jude was new in the gay community. He was still curious about his sexual orientation and thus, registered himself into a gay social network. Day by day, Jude would spent few hours searching for potential handsome gays to communicate with.

One day, Jude accidentally clicked a profile and his footprints was left unintentionally due to the stupid system. That profile happened to be Crawford's and Crawford immediately sent a message saying "hi"
Jude felt lazy to reply but eventually replied

"Hey, mind being acquainted?"

Then something knocked Jude hard on his head and he realised what on earth was he trying to do. Why should i bother replying such unflattering person? The pic also like cacat one! thought Jude nastily. Sooner or later, Crawford made his way into convincing Jude to meet him on one weekend. Until now, Jude was still confused and didnt know how Crawford managed to pull him out.

The 1st impression Jude had for Crawford

"The hell, so short one, > than a head shorter! Somemore not fit one...and not so handsome. Wasting time!" thought Jude. Suddenly, something struck Jude, as an inner voice told him to give Crawford a chance.

"Let's catch a movie, my treat!" said Crawford jovially.
"hm... OK!" replied Jude

In the cinema, Jude was shivering as he wore only shorts and thin much for his "machoness".
Crawford then took notice and shared his warm and comfortable jacket with Jude. That gave Jude a huge slap right into his face for judging a person based on his/her physical aappearance. Onwards then, Jude wanted to know more about this caring guy and after the movie, Jude and Crawford decided to go for a drink. They talk and talk and talk and talk and bid goodbye after the long conversation as Jude had to be home for dinner with his family.

Messages after messages were exchanged between Jude and Crawford and eventually, they started seeing each other oftenly every Tuesday after Jude's class ended.
Their favourite place to hangout?

Formerly, Jude was annoyed receiving messages from Crawford but eventually, not receiving a message from Crawford within a day will agitate Jude. This indicates that Jude was emotionally attached to Crawford.

Thats how they met---------and until now, Jude never stop thanking GOD for bringing Crawford into his life

Monday, January 17, 2011

Equilibrium between EQ and IQ

Leon was praised by his manager for his swiftness/agility in absorbing new things , and considerably faster than others so far. He was also a shining star among his colleagues as others are not as intellectual inclined as he is. Leon became arrogant day by day until he met someone that changed his personality. Sam, the supervisor of english department, had a nerdy-stricken face and the 1st impression that Leon had for his supervisor is

"ala,this guy, sure can manipulate and mess around with"

Leon was indeed wrong, and eventhough it wasnt his fault for arguing back due to the the unnecessary and stupid work load given by his supervisor, Sam took advantage of Leon instead. Sam belittled Leon and mocked him throughout his working hours till Leon almost broke down. Leon then had to endure these torments and eventually go through hell for 2 days. Sooner or later, Leon realised that EQ plays an important role in the working lifestyle. He learned how to tolerate and humbly followed whatever orders instructed by his supervisor.
Leon became so humble that he apologised to his supervisor just to smooth things out for a better working environment. Hence, no point having the brains when you dont know how to manage your EQ level. This incident will be etched in Leon's memory forever.

Lesson learned, thank you, Sam

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Bimbo trying to act smart

A colleague of mine passed by me.

" Hey,hey! I've taken diploma in mechanical engineering you know...but suddenly i started to develop interest in business haha" he said to me suddenly.

"Oh, isn't it a waste of time?" i replied sarcastically

"No la, i find it easy studying those lor but i lost interest" said my colleague

"Hmm, in that case, which topic do you find the hardest to cope in physics for your dip. lvl?" i questioned him.

"Trigonometrics, i find it hard to derive the formulaes" he stupidly answered.

LOL! trigo is under calculus/maths T actually. I dont know what is he trying to prove but he sure is a bimbs(he reminds me of paris hilton and nicole richie)
I felt like asking him several questions on advanced physic but then again, wouldnt want to embarass him further =) poor guy

Friday, January 7, 2011


"I'll disown you"
" I wont finance you for your education anymore"
" You wont even get a single part of my property"
"I dont want you to step anywhere nearby my grave"
"I dont have a son like that"
" Leave my house"

Those were the exact remarks stated by Leon's mother.
Please accept who i am mommie- Leon cried and walked away

Thursday, January 6, 2011


Spending even a pico-second with you is enough to make me contented, but to my distress, such happening/occurence are opposed by several factors.Why?

They judge you by your sexual orientation and never even give a chance to be acquainted with you and discover your beyond outstanding personality. Why?

They prohobit me to spend time with you. Why?

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

The Commotion At Work

I applied several jobs and got a handful offers namely from guardian, mph, popular and amway but finally, i decided to work for popular due to the higher pay and non-taxing working hours. Work started off well, and i easily grasped things as they were easier and basic compared to my previous job with amway. Made a couple of friends and things were going smooth until something occured today. What happened? Well, it was only my 3rd day working in popular and i learned how to process stocks and also taking in invoices from publishers and other bookstores such as allscript, mms, mph, visual,etc. A malay woman of about her mid 20's ,who had worked in popular for almost a year was suppose to teach me those stuff but she herself got confused and ending up, my boss had to take over. Then, she went off wrapping books whilst im surrounded with invoices to be processed . Boy! does she know how to wrap book perfectly only LOL!!!? Fine, i did all the hardwork, and after settling the invoices, the books are supposed to be displayed out and so, i asked her politely.

"Kak, leh tolong Josh untuk display majalah x krn josh x rapa pandai la" I said pretentiously and humbly.

"Kak penat la" she replied

lol????? Im speechless. Then, i asked her for help the 2nd time but she ignored and continued wrapping the precious books. I got heated up and complained to the boss. The boss then reprimanded her and she shed tears and kept blaming me that i was mr. know-it-all and tried to suppress her. WTH??! Bewildered, i argued back and she further want to cari gaduh. I shut my gab and she continued saying i didnt wrap the books whereby i was actually busy in the room ;sitting infront of the computer processing stocks to save her butt cause she's so dumb. In conclusion, she's a bummer who takes advantage of me to finish up the teamwork's job. Pathetic. However, my family and my partner was against my action. Let me ask you all a question, if you were a boss in a company, who would you hire- A person who generates profit and revenue or a bummer who is always in their comfort zone and lack in efficiency? ----

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year Eve

Filled with disappointment and frustration, Leon told Cliff to send him home. Earlier, Leon agreed to stay with Cliff in a fancy hotel located in the heart of KL but something unpleasant occured-Leon got a phone call from his mother, informing him that he musnt stay outside. Leon had no choice but to abide to her unreasonable order.

How did they spend new year eve together? Well, it was kinda sad, but Leon rang Cliff and did a countdown together via phone. Sometimes, simple things are truely meaningful (seriously).

The following day, Leon decided to shop for a belt and asked Cliff to tag along. Cliff gladly said yes and picked Leon up. They had baskin robbins and spent quality time together.

New Year

A new year followed along with several new resolutions

1.) To be a better individual (spiritually,mentally,emotionally)
2.) Possess 6 ripped abs within 6 months
3.) Spending more time with my "babyjai"
4.) Earn more money to fulfill my desires towards clothes, eletrical gadgets,etc
5.) Succeed academically and hit a >3.8 cgpa for my degree